Ok, I’m not even going to pretend I know the last time I did any writing. All I know is I was ridiculously busy trying to make my job successful with a company that wasn’t necessarily interested in the professional development of their employees. It was all about the bottom line and they made that painfully clear.
It’s a really long story that started on December 9th, 2014. It all started with a conversation I had with a hiring manager about becoming a site supervisor for a particular post. I accepted the job and a year and half later I was never made site supervisor because the company I was with knew damn, good and well the client would never pay for a site supervisor. Long story short I told my company to shove it and I moved on.
It, in all honesty, was a terrifying decision for me to make to leave. I loved the post I had been put on, loved working with the people there, understood the job, developed the training manual, and felt I had an all around knack for the work I was doing. At the risk of sounding unbelievably arrogant, it was just easy for me. I even grew to tolerate my employer, even though I was strung along and never actually given the site supervisor job I was promised December 9th, 2014. I could have stayed at the post and made it my career. But all good things come to end-especially when you’re ignored and and dismissed for extremely shallow reasons (Namely: I knew what I was doing with the client and it challenged the ego of my superiors).
So I took a deep breath and left. I was terrified it wasn’t going to work- that I’d be putting my family in financial trouble. I had another job pretty much instantaneously, but it was scary. The pay wasn’t as good and hours weren’t guaranteed, oh and to top it my employer didn’t ask me to stay (message received)- but in less than a week of trepidation, I moved on.
My superior, if you could call her that, was really good at making me feel insignificant simply because I haven’t been able to pay for schooling yet. (Working on that whole school thing currently and doing well saving up.) Seriously, for the last 4 months I’ve been horribly depressed because of this chick but this morning I woke up feeling good that it was all gone.
I’m looking forward to working with my new company. I seemed to have joined at an excellent time. The company is expanding and hours are available. But what really gave me an extra boost was being offered a job from another security company while standing in uniform with my new company. I kid you not- on post, new company, and offered an immediate supervisor position with another company. It made me realize I’m not worthless just because I don’t have the education. Yeah, I have to work harder, but I’ve got the drive now to do so. In this nightmare of the last year and half of being strung along, my confidence grew and I’ve developed essential skills to help me advance. I’m excited for the direction I’m heading in and really love who I’m becoming.
And in the words of Madonna-
You know you never really knew how much your selfish bullshit cost me
Or fuck you!